Step Two to Insanity

5:17 AM:  I cannot wake up. But in that state of not sleeping, I know I was awake.  My consciousness was in a limbo - half sleep, half awake, neither both.  My eyes were closed, but I saw light.  My mind was alert, churning thoughts here and there: How to "celebrate" my upcoming birthday?  What was that song I heard in the radio again? When is the enrolment for the first semester? And who was that woman standing by the door?  But of course, there was no one at the door.  The woman was a silhoutte of a suppressed memory that somehow managed to creep between the tiny cracks in my mind.

5:18 AM: I opened my eyes.  I remained in bed for about five minutes, eyes open, thinking about the things I have thought of while half-sleep, half-awake, neither both.

And onwards...It was the same as any other day - hazy.